Random gibberish

its 2am and iv been woken up again by the constant shaggin of the resident tutor! he needs to oil his bed and well STOP MAKIN ALL THE FECKIN NOISE! bastard! i have an exam in the morning and he woke me up =/ well i guess its the only way the goat will live here is that if the students here stop listening to random music and wearing random expressions on their face. The law of torts is a tricky subject whereby im attracted to the beacon of life in her eyes which has this magnetic effect on me! i need to start playing soccer somewhere otherwise the walk to the fish and chip shop is going to be a guilt trip to cardiff to check out teh stuff on sale there as i prepare to sit down and give my open book exam in the morning with nothing in my head that the wind, the earth and the sheep.
My favourite word in the english language has to be PULSAR. she reminds me of a pulsar. How come i only remember things which i can relate or link to her. I know i wont get any answers here as my friends have turned my blog into an advertising board for malik pco, ah yes :D good times with malik pco! the rowdy bunch are back from a night of clubbin in cardiff and i ask myself if the silver spoon is going to jump over the cow or if i have time to watch top gun because i really feel like listening to its songs which i cant seem to download because the feckin university guys have blocked the p2p network and shit and the computer seems slightly a bit slowish to me now, i mean like a 0.1% difference i think, but i should scan everything out and remove all the software i dont need. I need to find myself a job, its just that i walked all the way to town today because i didnt want to cook and its been a while since iv been to a club, i should go this saturday! horse smsed that he got his ipod! good, he has exactly 6months to enjoy it before the hand of fate swoops in and gives him a reality check. yes i consider myself to be a sort of superhero and i was wearing this twatman t-shirt all day today and shes nice and all but the law of torts its interesting...i should call her tommorow, i cant expect things to just fall into my lap which is pretty nice when it happens though :D theres a gents night tommorow when 2 strippers are performing almost next door, but im going to a rags party!
Finished readin khushwant singh`s " Death at my doorstep" it was as usual another extremely interesting book by him. Always a good read, mostly because of the unedited statement of his thoughts. Writes what was exactly in his head. I wonder how shes doing now, i hope shes better now..i did bad and winnie the pooh is just so irritatingly cute. Tommorow i sign a contract to move into this house from sept. Cool house.. it`ll be good to live in a more open space, but i guess i`ll miss the residence with all its frequently interesting events. Two shers in khushwant singhs book really stuck in my head, i know why i remembered only these two.. the first was :

Na pooch kaun hain, kyon raah mein laachar baithey hain
musafir hain, safar karnay kee tamanna haar baithay hain

( Dont ask me who i am, why i sit helplessly by the roadside
I am a traveller who has lost the will to go to my destination )

Iv lost the will,yet i remain a traveller..ill reason to myself and pick myself up walk the distance again. Maybe im scared that my destination is nothing but a pulsar from the past.. a mirage. Should i fight the urge to let go of hope and face it ? why am i a pessimist? i wont get to know myself if i dont go through it. Its amazing how i dont even know myself completely yet, why am i a mystery to myself? or is it just a relflection i see on myself of my (hopefully not) mirage? random playlist.. a schiller song.. heh.. always gets you thinkin things you push in the back of your mind when you listen to hiphop or most other popular genres of music. schiller - i feel you, knows how to express himself i suppose. I remember another sher in the book, by iqbal .. reminds me of how differnt i am from her yet how similar i precieve it to be.. :
Main to jalta hoon ke muzmir meyree fitrat main soze
Tu ferozaan hai keh parvano se ho sanda teyra.

( I burn because it is in my nature to do so
Moths are drawn to you because with warmth you glow )

I wrote this sher to noon and he caught up on the most important thing.. parvana .. an interesting creature.. dies trying to get the very thing it strives for. I wonder if schezad mughal is working on a new album! me and asim are the only ones who seem to listen to him! I have to climb this hill, its just sitting out there through my window just beggin to be climbed ! next week hopefully! Eid today, or so i heard. i wonder what jugal bandi means. i wonder why i ask myself so many questions.